Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Coincidence? I Don't Think So.

I started the day with vigor and verve, newly-repaired Activator in hand. Somewhere around midday I realized it. My finger is hurting. Inspecting the site of pain, I find a blister forming at the bend of my middle finger, no small feat considering it's right smack on top of a callous. A fifteen year-old callous.

Really? So you mean the scratchy duct tape that the dude (um, professional) used to repair the cracked shaft rubbed against my finger all day and gave me a blister? Grrrrr.

So I put it aside and used my other one. Now mind you, this Activator is cracking too, and on the brink of the same repair. But I've been careful, you see. Been nursing her along. Not five minutes later, BLAM!!! I turn around to look and she's lying on the floor busted, the handle in two pieces beside her.

Bum-bum-pa-dum, bum-pa-dum, pa-dum, pa-dum.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I know you can't hear me. But that was a high-pitched scream. Because, don'tcha know, it goes with the rest of my day. Week. Since getting home from Casper, actually. GAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

After everyone left and I had time to stew, it hit me. Crap. Now it's obvious. Is it to you? One instrument hurts my hand, the other one breaks outright? BLAM, POW, KAPOOEE.

Now I interpret this as one of two things, both of which are signs. And yes, if you're wondering, I believe in signs. One, I was hating on my day job and indirectly destroyed the object of my hate, or two, the Universe, God, my angels, whoever's up there talking, just said "hang it up".

Get rid of my day job? Did I just say that out loud? Because I have lots of reasons to keep it. And only a few to let it go.

But look at the signs. At my heart. The heart that calmed the minute I sat down to write about it, the moment I laid hands on my computer. Listen to her. She is the song of the sea, of wind-tossed waves sluicing against a sandy beach, the roar of quiet abandon to what is and what shall be.

Remember what Bade Baba said?

"The heart is the hub of all sacred places; go there and roam." ~ Bhagavan Nityananda

Yeah. Thank you, Bade Baba. Thank you very much. I will. I'll look at those signs.

And I will see.

~ Olivia J. Herrell

1 comment:

A.T. Post said...

Rebel! There's something you need to try before you give up Facebook completely. I use Google Chrome and I downloaded a third-party app called StayFocused which allows me 10 minutes per day on the sites which I waste the most time on (as outlined/delineated by me). I entered in Facebook and YouTube and sure enough, StayFocused kicked me off after 10 minutes. I keep trying to get back on and it just gives me a message that says "Shouldn't you be working?" GREAT productivity booster. Perhaps more convenient than deactivating your Facebook account.


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